Listening to: my fans going.
Reading: Just got done with Eclipse
Eating: A straw!!!!
I'm going to first say, Don't read this if you don't care, this is for two purposes, to fill the few of you who care in on how my year went, and so I have it documented incase I ever lose the file. Ps: I don't mention it, but I got a laptop for christmas!
2007 A year of mutt feelings in my mind.
I began at the first of the year still playing Gaia and ocassionally Warcraft Two... Eventually me and Mel had a major falling out and stopped talking completely. This happened after the first time my cousin attempted suicide over her ex-Boyfriend Jake... She got really depressed because she couldn't be with him and tried to off herself. I was very close to my cousin Mel at the time and couldn't really bear that though. Shortly after Mel (friend) stopped talking to me I finally gave in to several people who were encouraging me to play World of Warcraft. I began to play with Jaime and my ex-AJ... I had a blast, I got all the way up to level fourty playing Alliance on a PVP server, I had a 40 Human Paladin... Then I started pvping and basically said, screw the Alliance side. I made a Horde Character and never looked back. All I did all summer was play wow. I slept from 7AM to 4PM and kept on like that. In June I met someone while I was leveling on WoW... his character was Thian, his name Pat. This guy became my best friend, like a counselor. I was almost always depressed during this time of the year and he kept my head above the surface so to speak. Then I met a guy on WoW named Kevin. Kevin was a dick, he cheated on me and lied to me, and eventually broke my heard in August. By this time Pat had already spoken his undying love for me and was there for me 24/7. Pat had a girlfriend though, Krystal. He loved her but she was a bitch to him, and to me. She was one of my best friends at the time and when me and Kevin were in a pause in our relationship she did W2W with Kevin. I never had respect for either of them after that. I spent the next Months until december trying not to go off the edge and wondering why I continued to exist. Pat loved me but I could never love him, he would have given anything for me to love him and it was one of the only options in life that would make him happy. I agreed to let him come visit over christmas break with the intent to end his hopes and dreams of being with me when he left. Instead, I found my soul mate. He stayed from the 21st to the 1st, I miss him like crazy! It's all okay though because in five months' time we(me and my sister) will be driving up there to go pick him up and bring him back and he is moving in with me. I cannot wait until that day. (as a side note he was officially my boyfriend on Christmas Eve--what a great Anniversary!)
Other than Pat, I met the other important person in my life, Kristy, she asked me to go bowling with her. Kristy has moved 10 times in her life. She's very blonde and bubbly, but does cheer me up through her idiocy. I spend a lot of my time hanging out with her so I don't go insanely lonely.
Prior to meeting pat from August to December I felt like I was going insane, I was stressed out beyond belief with everything in the house, how my dad was so lazy (whenever he wasn't working (he worked alot of overtime to makeup for his fuckups)) and I was depressed and lonely as hell, I was mad of the situation I was in, but I was also happy at the minor things in life like my straight A's once again. Thus I call this my Mutt feeling.
I think I'm going to write one of these in June because it's hard to remember a whole year worth of shit.
As far as last years crap, I rarely talk to Jaime any more. I mainly talk to Pat and Kristy, and my sister. Me and my sister are suprisingly close and she is thrilled with my choice of a boyfriend.
Healthwise- My grandma had a heart attack and that was a very scary thing, but she's still alive, thankfully because I love grandma Metts so. My uncle mike went through a TERRIBLE time with infection in his stomach, he flat lined twice and has lost 50 pounds after his 2-3 month stay in the hospital (more than half in intensive care) and as far as me, I'm eating alot, especially since he's left. I really need to stop eating so much, I'm scared to death i'm going to get Diabetes or I already have it
I almost forgot that I adopted Sissy! (Now sammy) I love her to death and she sleeps with me most nights, shes not so shy anymore and isnt scared of anyway. Currently we have four cats (Lucky, Shadow, Sammy, and Tiny) althought Lucky might go within the next year because hes getting old
and then we have Rascal who is six and bear who is seven now.. as far as dogs..
As far as drinking goes--I've drank since then. A few times with kristy (once she got totally wasted, god that was hillarious) I'm drinking right now actually, I got really hot and almost couldn't type so now i have my window open and both fans on. Feels great, lol. Nevertheless, I'm still a good kid with straight A's and such.
I did change alot in attitude and who I am over the year, I really don't know how to describe it. Now I want to work on computers for a living. and see my future with pat working on computers, I know I would be extremely happy and think I am one of the luckiest SOBs alive because I did find my other half, I long to be in his arms. I want to have three children with him, two girls! Bella Marie and Kalliandra Rose.. and I think we're getting my name when we marry... Lol!
I really am just going to look foreward to May when I am in his arms again. I don't really think I'll change much either, although it wouldn't kill me to get some more friends.
I hope no one dies during the next year and really can't believe I'm 17 and complete again...
2007 beats any year though because i met him!
I know, crazy huh? I have so much gay drama in my life, and this made it seem even crazier!!! I hope everyone had a happy holidays and even though I don't have time to devote to this site, I love you guys and miss you so much, feel free to comment or note me if you ever want to chat!
BIG HUGS TO YOU ALL!
Asuka (the wolf), Shaani (my Alias), Kalliandra (my pen-name), Sarah (my name of course!)